Far From Perfect

Just in case anyone out there was thinking that I might be perfect, I'd like to assure you that I am far from it. Perfection is something I will never achieve. I make mistakes every day. Yep, every single day. I don't really like to admit that either. I wish I were able to say that I only mess up twice a week or something like that, but that's just not going to happen while I reside here on this earth.

You see, there are days that I think I have it all together and then bang! I stubbed my toe and something slipped out of my mouth that should have been bleeped. I might see a person in a store that I strongly dislike and my mind automatically says, "Ugh! I hate her!" when my heart knows better than to have let hate slip in. Maybe I yelled at my children one day. Maybe I told them to shut-up. Maybe I was secretly planning the demise of someone. There's always something that's going to slip up on me. Thankfully, I know how to battle those things. I have a Savior that left me a map and a key to show me how to navigate this life. I can promise you that I struggle daily. I can also promise you that I have to tap into His love and mercy every single day in order to survive.

I don't think this life is about attaining perfection, but rather the journey towards a fulfilled life. A life where Christ is the captain of my ship. Ahoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJ3NaxDHNVA

Waiting Sucks

Yesterday morning began bright and early. We had to be at the hospital for Dodger's ct scan at 7:30, and I did NOT want to get out of bed. It was pouring down rain and the thunder was softly rolling. To me, these things signal sleep! Ugh. Anyways, that part is behind us. Tomorrow afternoon he will have his day surgery. This one has been a very long time in coming. We have waited so long just to get to this point and finally, we will have some answers tomorrow. Whew. I hate waiting. Not just for things in this physical world, either.

We are also trying to find a house. I want one right now! (stomping feet) Actually, I wanted one about six months ago. Sigh. I hate this waiting thing. It makes me want to say words that would need to be bleeped out. So, I guess the only thing to do, after having my hissy, is to figure out WHY I'm having to wait. This gives me plenty of time to look back and see what I have learned in this waiting period. What have I learned about myself? My husband? My children? Our finances? Our health? Our emotional stability? Hmm, good questions.

I know that there are times in my life when I have to wait on spiritual things, too. Don't much like that, either. In fact, I'm a "I want it right now!" kind of girl. If I don't get my way, right when I want it, I usually throw some kind of a fit. Don't worry, no one gets slapped or beaten. (Though I sometimes feel like causing bodily harm.) After a period of cooling down and meditating I can usually find a reason for God's delay. Most of the time, it's because there is a lesson to be learned. Something I need to help me step up to the next level. Get my drift?

Since it's spring time and all kinds of little critters are coming out, and I have boys, snakes come to mind. Why? Well, because as they grow they shed their skin. They get to come out of the old rough yucky stuff that doesn't really fit them anymore. I guess that's what happens spiritually. I gotta shed my skin sometimes. Shedding it isn't pleasant, either. To be rather frank, it sucks. God never promised us a life full of happiness and cherries and gold stars and roses. Nope. He just promised he'd be with us through it all. So, can I find contentment in just knowing that He is with me? Sure I can. Do I have to like it? Nope. But I DO have to pull up my big girl panties and move on.

Life will keep moving, whether I do or not. I don't want to be left behind. Do you?

http://www.billygraham.org/dailydevotion.asp?ArticleID=7219

Taking It All In

What a beautiful day to be outside, even if you have to wear a sweater. I love sitting on the swing listening to the singing birds and letting my heart be inspired by the nature that surrounds me. What an awesome God it took to create all this. I am so very blessed that I live in a country where I can say that without fear for my life. So thank you, ALL MILITARY PERSONNEL, (past and present) for all of your sacrifices. I <3 you for what you've done for me.

As the fresh air fills my lungs today I am preparing for some potentially difficult days ahead. It's kind of like I'm storing up God's goodness to draw from on another day. I'm kind of a silly girl, when skies are gray and dreary outside, so goes my attitude. So, I shall need a full well of His living water to drink from as I thirst.

I'm off to have lunch with my husband. Have a good day :o)
It is well ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vaar6Ij55ig

Counting My Blessings

I have so many things to be thankful for, but sometimes I don't think I have a very thankful attitude. Make sense? Let's just get real. There will always be things in this life that we have to deal with. Unpleasant things, hurtful things, etc ... but life goes on and we learn to deal. I'm so greatful for so many things and so many people in my life but sometimes my countenance doesn't show it. So what's up with that?
Plus I have a headache, ugh.
I have completely gotten myself off of caffeine and carbonated drinks, so that's not the cause. I've already been through and conquered the caffeine withdrawal headaches, so I know that this is not from that. Probably stress. We all have stress. We will always have SOMEthing to deal with.
So to help me find my smile today, I'm going to count my blessings out loud.

1. Jesus
2. Because of Him, I do not have to burn in Hell
3. My children
4. Family
5. Chocolate
6. Angry Birds

Got a list you want to share? Bring it on!

Watch this one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5bNE-5TVAmg

Good Morning

Today I'm feeling rather inspirational. I kinda like that feeling. My heart is peaceful, though there will always be issues to resolve. I guess my faith is what brings that peace. No, I'm sure of it.

Visit:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1ZpiAGVJN0&feature=related

Ben's Birthday

Today my baby boy, Ben, turns 6 years old. Saying how quickly time flies is so cliche, so I'll spare you. I sure do miss the days of snuggling up with my newborn baby. I do not, however, miss the dirty diapers. I'll never forget the smell of his baby breath, the touch of his little baby toes, or the feel of his baby breath on my neck. The joys of motherhood never leave my heart. For this, I am most thankful.

Hello World

Well hello there, world! Once again it has been way too long since I've been on here. Time to up my game. I'm sitting here listening to Michael Buble and I can hear the sweet little birds a chirpin' outside. Ahh, music to my ears.

Listen to this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHQvyEkb5lA