Just in case anyone out there was thinking that I might be perfect, I'd like to assure you that I am far from it. Perfection is something I will never achieve. I make mistakes every day. Yep, every single day. I don't really like to admit that either. I wish I were able to say that I only mess up twice a week or something like that, but that's just not going to happen while I reside here on this earth.
You see, there are days that I think I have it all together and then bang! I stubbed my toe and something slipped out of my mouth that should have been bleeped. I might see a person in a store that I strongly dislike and my mind automatically says, "Ugh! I hate her!" when my heart knows better than to have let hate slip in. Maybe I yelled at my children one day. Maybe I told them to shut-up. Maybe I was secretly planning the demise of someone. There's always something that's going to slip up on me. Thankfully, I know how to battle those things. I have a Savior that left me a map and a key to show me how to navigate this life. I can promise you that I struggle daily. I can also promise you that I have to tap into His love and mercy every single day in order to survive.
I don't think this life is about attaining perfection, but rather the journey towards a fulfilled life. A life where Christ is the captain of my ship. Ahoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJ3NaxDHNVA
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Waiting Sucks
Yesterday morning began bright and early. We had to be at the hospital for Dodger's ct scan at 7:30, and I did NOT want to get out of bed. It was pouring down rain and the thunder was softly rolling. To me, these things signal sleep! Ugh. Anyways, that part is behind us. Tomorrow afternoon he will have his day surgery. This one has been a very long time in coming. We have waited so long just to get to this point and finally, we will have some answers tomorrow. Whew. I hate waiting. Not just for things in this physical world, either.
We are also trying to find a house. I want one right now! (stomping feet) Actually, I wanted one about six months ago. Sigh. I hate this waiting thing. It makes me want to say words that would need to be bleeped out. So, I guess the only thing to do, after having my hissy, is to figure out WHY I'm having to wait. This gives me plenty of time to look back and see what I have learned in this waiting period. What have I learned about myself? My husband? My children? Our finances? Our health? Our emotional stability? Hmm, good questions.
I know that there are times in my life when I have to wait on spiritual things, too. Don't much like that, either. In fact, I'm a "I want it right now!" kind of girl. If I don't get my way, right when I want it, I usually throw some kind of a fit. Don't worry, no one gets slapped or beaten. (Though I sometimes feel like causing bodily harm.) After a period of cooling down and meditating I can usually find a reason for God's delay. Most of the time, it's because there is a lesson to be learned. Something I need to help me step up to the next level. Get my drift?
Since it's spring time and all kinds of little critters are coming out, and I have boys, snakes come to mind. Why? Well, because as they grow they shed their skin. They get to come out of the old rough yucky stuff that doesn't really fit them anymore. I guess that's what happens spiritually. I gotta shed my skin sometimes. Shedding it isn't pleasant, either. To be rather frank, it sucks. God never promised us a life full of happiness and cherries and gold stars and roses. Nope. He just promised he'd be with us through it all. So, can I find contentment in just knowing that He is with me? Sure I can. Do I have to like it? Nope. But I DO have to pull up my big girl panties and move on.
Life will keep moving, whether I do or not. I don't want to be left behind. Do you?
http://www.billygraham.org/dailydevotion.asp?ArticleID=7219
We are also trying to find a house. I want one right now! (stomping feet) Actually, I wanted one about six months ago. Sigh. I hate this waiting thing. It makes me want to say words that would need to be bleeped out. So, I guess the only thing to do, after having my hissy, is to figure out WHY I'm having to wait. This gives me plenty of time to look back and see what I have learned in this waiting period. What have I learned about myself? My husband? My children? Our finances? Our health? Our emotional stability? Hmm, good questions.
I know that there are times in my life when I have to wait on spiritual things, too. Don't much like that, either. In fact, I'm a "I want it right now!" kind of girl. If I don't get my way, right when I want it, I usually throw some kind of a fit. Don't worry, no one gets slapped or beaten. (Though I sometimes feel like causing bodily harm.) After a period of cooling down and meditating I can usually find a reason for God's delay. Most of the time, it's because there is a lesson to be learned. Something I need to help me step up to the next level. Get my drift?
Since it's spring time and all kinds of little critters are coming out, and I have boys, snakes come to mind. Why? Well, because as they grow they shed their skin. They get to come out of the old rough yucky stuff that doesn't really fit them anymore. I guess that's what happens spiritually. I gotta shed my skin sometimes. Shedding it isn't pleasant, either. To be rather frank, it sucks. God never promised us a life full of happiness and cherries and gold stars and roses. Nope. He just promised he'd be with us through it all. So, can I find contentment in just knowing that He is with me? Sure I can. Do I have to like it? Nope. But I DO have to pull up my big girl panties and move on.
Life will keep moving, whether I do or not. I don't want to be left behind. Do you?
http://www.billygraham.org/dailydevotion.asp?ArticleID=7219
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